Songs I currently listen to

Biasanya kalo gw lagi mellow inget2 hubungan gw sama dia, yang gw dengerin ini:

Maroon 5 - "Nothing Lasts Forever"

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I'll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Tapi berhubung yang sering teringat adalah gimana dia nyakitin gw, dan semua kesalahannya, jadi gw sebenarnya lebih seneng denger ini:

Lily Allen - "Smile"

When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were fucking that girl next door, what you do that for
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack
I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Dari dulu gw suka sama lagu "Smile" ini, ternyata beneran kejadian di gw (kecuali bagian f*cking girl next door, well, ga separah itu juga sih).
When he were crying on the phone, I was spontaneously smiled.. really smiled.
Honestly.. it felt so goood *ups*

...and this is the end of those 6 years

6 tahun itu sama dengan 72 bulan.
6 tahun itu lebih dari 2160 hari.
6 tahun itu lebih dari 51840 jam.
6 tahun itu hampir dari 1/3 hidup yang gw uda jalani sampai detik ini.
6 tahun itu berisi banyak kenangan manis, pahit, sedih, bahagia dan semua hal yang ikut membentuk gw sampe ini.

Tapi bukan berarti 6 tahun itu harus jadi alasan buat gw untuk berhenti dan memaksakan sesuatu yang sudah rusak dan ga semestinya.
6 tahun itu harus gw rela untuk lepas, agar gw sendiri lebih bahagia ke depannya.

Apa yang gw alamin kemarin memang terlalu pahit,
tapi gw yakin ko Allah sayang sama gw.
Ini pasti yang terbaik, biar gw bisa belajar banyak hal tentang cinta dan pada akhirnya gw akan dikasih yang jauuuh lebih baik pada saat nya nanti.

harus ikhlas, harus kuat, harus sabar.
ga boleh nangis lagii.
udah cukup berbulan-bulan sedih teruss.


pasti bisa nit!